色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
redberrie
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04-06-1991
NP - BA - ISCM - 3S01
ex-assumptionknight
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Tuesday, February 22, 2011
: 8:35:00 PM :
i would so so love to kill off that other side of me that is so ill-disciplined and gutless to the point of no return. i disgust myself. really.
wants to write a short story excerpt based on something very random that happened today at the blk 46 benches today with class peeps. but im too tired. ><" but it's great to see everyone again. :)
Älykäs! what do you think of this name?
look forward to the story!
i hope i can post it up soon. hahahs.
but dont expect too much.. [!!?] im so amature. *laughs*
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Sunday, February 20, 2011
: 2:54:00 AM :
YES THE ONLY WAY.
THE ONLY WAY IS UP.
UP. UP. UP. RIGHT!?
I AM STILL SO NERVE-WRECKED.
ALWAYS SO LAST MINUTE ME.
>D
GOODABYE.
NINJA DAY 2 TMW.
I CAN DO THIS SHIT. :)
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Friday, February 18, 2011
: 1:29:00 PM :
a real factual sad story + SID/黑夢's 優しい悲劇 + my own crazy depressed 'im not good enough' feelings = I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW.
oh gawd. the caffeine's NOT WORKING. HOWW.
i havent QC my stuff yet, holy holy holy holy me.
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: 3:18:00 AM :
the sinking feeling that you're not good enough for anything.
that you're only ONLY a so-so standard.
idk. i dont have a do-or-die goal in life.
i dont have any dreams either.
life seems to be 'what actually can i qualify for?' rather than 'what i want to do.'
what is left seem only to be fantasies.
fantasies dont exist in real life. they dont come true.
they only exist in the mind of the thinker.
living, breathing for that moment for its conjurer.
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
: 2:15:00 PM :
HOLY MIGHTY FERLY ME FASTER GET ALL YOUR WORK DONE PLEASE.
MAJOR TSKSS.
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Thursday, February 10, 2011
: 1:10:00 AM :
sucks like shit to have a 1 track mind.
GOODYE WORLD.
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Wednesday, February 09, 2011
: 3:24:00 PM :
hallos! I AM HERE TO PIMP MY OWN LJ ACCOUNT. hahahs.
http://redberrie.livejournal.com/
DO VISIT! :D
i intend to do a mad ton load of memes there. :]
so everyone can understand me better?
i'd like to have more friendss! web friends! real life friends! anything! hahahs. X33
and my lefty hurts. OW. a wooden splinter got in. :x from the wooden zhu gan when i was unhanging and collecting the dried laundry.
arghh. it hurts now cause er jie was dissecting my palm to help get it out. D: but there's still a wee bit of wood inside. ><"
and i downloaded Kagrra's Shiroi Uso single and alice nine.'s Gemini album on a whim~ hmms, the songs are quite nice i think! :)
bye bye. *waves*
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Tuesday, February 08, 2011
: 5:09:00 PM :
today. i cant find a picture that 'sings' a mood that i want.
so it's a song today. :) MAGIA by Kalafina. love the strength in the song. and also the PV backdrop, the red drapings stretched from the centre of a diagonally-placed chessboard. <3
okays, lam ferly dont ever ever stop fighting for your life. show your strength. you can do it. just get up. GET UP AND DO IT. RUN!
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Sunday, February 06, 2011
: 12:54:00 PM :
528th post!! *claps*
im on coffee-high currently.
and i shall be a good girl today!
5 mins more and i'll need to start work!
at 1pm!
listening to BEST FRIENDS by the GazettE! it's a preppy song!
ahh, NEWS also has a song named best friend!
btw, yamapi was on my home's msia chinese newspaper, the yu le ban front page. TROLOLOLOL.
tmw! i'll be out! alone! a couple of things to buy! ahh, my kachings and wallet!
and i actually forgot to wish bro happy birthday yesterday. ;;A;;
i'll atone myself and buy a slice of Secret Recipe cake home tmw. xDD candle candle.. HMMS. should i get a candle? O.o
the GazettE's Kantou Dogeza Kumiai! was surprised to hear the shen ping liang peng bu neng xiang wang friendship song at the end.. O_O wonder is it just my copy of the song or .. [!?] hmms.. but i liked that very weeny part. ahh, i just googled about that part! it's actually a tune called Auld Lang Syne. In Japan, it's the tune used for this song, Hotaru no Hikari [Glow of a Firefly]. :3
bye byeee~
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Friday, February 04, 2011
: 12:54:00 AM :
wahh piannnggg. i find the GazettE's Cockayne Soup album 320kbps find until i want to raise white flag really. ><" but then i found it! (*A*) HOHOHO. actually, all my Gaze music files all damn messy. D: liek kinda challenging to find 320 for their older stuff. ><" okays, or maybe i just dont know to look under the right nooks and crannies. ><" anyways, you prolly arent interested in listening to me/reading about to me talking about Gazemen. xDD
REITAAAAA! 8D *reita smiley*
i shalls sleeps lates tonights! XD
then later crashh on the road trip back to visit relatives. cause actually i really cannot think of what to do on the car. D: other then listening to music. and playing with my phone games.. ><" and i cant read on a moving vehicle, cause i go all @_@.. reading on an mrt is still okays though.. i think?
ahh, sorrys. this post is so filled with rubbishy engrish. xD
and i miss using the word GG in my speech! cause i use to say that quite abit whilst school time! hmms, it's usually when i talk to eshlyn! or sometimes keziaa! 8D and hence! it's been quite long since i last used GG! actually 4 months ++! ahh! i mean, there's no one for me to go liek talking talking in the office and then suddenly go ".. GG .. !!!" hahahahs. XD
okays okays, BYE BYE! i will GazettE-tize my Illanor later before i get out of the house for the roadtrip. (*3*)
AND FLYING COKE BOTTLES LOOK AWESOMESAUCESSSS.
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Thursday, February 03, 2011
: 1:16:00 AM :
Lots of pillows or just one?
not sure. 2? 1 really huge puffy and fluffy one. and 1 normal one.
What kind of books do you read?
actually. alot. it depends on the mood. but nothing with too crabby english or over corny or boring storyline.
What are your neighbors like?
The one on the right has WAYY TOO MANY STRAY CATS.
The one on the left.. PLEASE DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE HOUSE! CLEAN THE DAMN PLACE UP! EVEN THOUGH YOU GUYS ARENT LIVING THERE ANYMORE ATM! goddamn. i believe i got my dengue fever from there.
What's really creepy?
things that really scare me?
What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
>///<" the GazettE currently. im all REITAAAAAAAA!!!! 8D
Do you prefer your junk food sweet, salty or savory?
as long as it's YUMM and it doesnt make me feel very ni after too many bites.
What websites do you always visit when you go online?
deviantart, twitter, lj friends page, and other sites here and there..
What was the last thing you bought?
cant remember. i think it was the oyster kaki fuyong from makan place! they ran out of chicken and prawn. D: i should have asked the person to add oysters for me.. ><"
What is your greatest fear?
greatest?? im not sure. getting myself into real shits that i cant get myself out of.
Do you get cravings? If so, what do you crave?
food! kachings! lots of sleep for everyday! good complexion! beautiful face and gorgeous body! company.. at times.. of someone that really really understands me and how im feeling. more web friends? :3 happiness. very good friends. the list goes on and on..
What do you do to change your mood?
i need to sleep to truly reboot and like change moods.
What was the last meal you ate?
reunion dinner steamboat!
Do you want to learn another language?
yes yes yes. i think if you are reading you would know what 2 languages i'd like to learn.
Five things you can't live without?
food! intardnet! sleep! inspiration? and also the something very deep down inside me that keeps me going on and on. i guess.
Find the closest book currently sitting near you and flip to page 36. What is the first sentence of the second paragraph?
"There are four main ways , that is routes for exposure, for chemical substances to enter the human body:"
What's something that you'd like to say to someone right now?
"I feel lonely in my life actually. and I'm really worried about my uni future."
What are you looking forward to?
The time when i figure out what's truly my dream in this life. and go running off with it grasped tightly in my hand. clutched near to my heart. my brain churning and moving gears in action to make all that i dream of to come true.
got the questions off somewhere..
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-- HESITATING MEANS DEATH - the GazettE [Italian translation - angeldevil87@LJ]
[English translation - distressedcoma@LJ]
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope the flowers that changed their colours will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you pour water on them without trembling
The colourful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again