色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
redberrie
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
: 2:41:00 PM :
HOMGOSH! a new header! bassist Aki from SID! (^O^)/ i've said this before! that i really liek this picture very much! the whole blindfold eyes theme and the really whitewashed surroundings. (*A*)
YARR. omg. i always end up making new headers and last time FFXIII wallies nearing exam time. what'swrongwithme. :c
anyways, i finally found this scan after liek crazy omgg DDD: so many clicks. and jrock scans lj comm scans directory failed me.. T___T whoever filed or tagg this just tagged as 'aki' and not 'SID'. hurr. (*3*) waste my time flipp through so many pages. (*3*) still abit sore about it, but nvm i found it now. :) actually through the sidnad lj comm scans directory. hais, maybe i should have started looking from there in the 1st place. ><"
no more funky dreams to share lately. cause im always so tired. and my image editing skills phail bigg time. aki looks abit over-pale, peaky. ><" sorry. ><" but i dont wanna fiddle it already. ><"
and my studying skills are total PHAILLZZZ too. srsly, i dont really excel in doing anything do i? (☆_-)
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Friday, August 27, 2010
: 1:13:00 AM :
a PEEKTURE! oh goshh. i forgot to slot in a picture. ><" btw, thinking about it.. the zombie part might have been due to me who was watching the latest resident evil movie trailer for quite a few times. purposely sat down at the bench to watch hahas. it was that time at bugis book hogging reading at kino, during my alone trip down to lavender ICA to fiddle with my re-entry permit and access card stamps chops on passport. ><"
and eileen said i was crushing on my 'brother'.. DD: WHOOPSLOLWUT!!?
>////<" *coughscoughs* >///<"
guy in the peekture's a dude btw. :D hees.
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
: 11:37:00 PM :
arghh. it's here againn. say hello againn to this feeling of feeling ridiculously trapped by my own life, that makes me feel kinda frustrated. kinda emo. very broke. and very sad. ><"
with reference to keziaa's tweet.. broke broke broke. this year i feel so broke. cause i keep spending money on things. i paid for my own new phone. paid for own passport very recently. btw, when i mentioned that passport thingy; keziaa says she strongly thinks parents should be paying for that. hahahahs. :D glad to have her support. then she questioned me why was i paying for it myself since mother was intending to pay it for me but didnt have hard cash with her.. to which i answered that the two of them parents were giving me the impression that they were like tossing the ball to each other.. T___T i got kinda annoyed and just screamed that i'll pay for the damn thing myself.
i really dont like it. family planning. it's damn impt. if you married so maggot late in your age, then dont bite off more than you can chew. :\ meaning. dont give birth to so many kidds when you cant bring ALL OF THEM UP COMFORTABLY. arghh. let's not talk about this anymore. gets me grrr about things.
last night's dream was longg. it's kinda 2 part dream.
but it somehow involved father's room at his desk table, where there were strawberry & vanilla ice-cream wrapped/contained in some kinda flat-ish bread-made cone [!!?] in oblong long-ish transparent plastic wrapping on the table top. there were 2 oblongs of that btw, around 3 cones in each. I was with 'siblings' *no, they arent my real-life siblings, but in the dream i just somehow knew that they were my 'siblings'*.. at first, i was sitting down chatting and eating ice-cream with another sibling sister *which idk whether older or younger than me* later, my younger brother entered the room. *if you remember, im actually the youngest in the family in real life* he's quite grown up and good-looking :DD at some point around there, i stood up and asked him whether he wanted to sit down and asked him whether he wanted ice-cream too. oh, i think i picked a strawberry one to eat. and i can remember very strongly that he was standing behind me, and very closely on purpose as well. and i kinda jokingly told him off to back off or something, which he chuckled and later obliged after a few more light protests from me. *hahahs, adorable brother? :D* and i think he took a vanilla ice-cream. and the dream kinda drifted off and ended there. oh btw, the furnishing in father's room was a little different that in real-life too; his rocking chair wasnt there and there was a bookcase beside where the rocking chair would have been. but the interaction with that younger brother part was something i can remember really strongly.
the 2nd part dream was much more confusing. cant remember that well. but it somehow involved me catching sight of someone *it might be that sibling sister in the dream before or someone idk, cant be sure* running inside to some toilet *can remember strongly that it was the disabled ppl's toilet beside the one she ran in, hahas.* and she kinda told me that there were some 'infected/virus-ed' people which will turn into zombies [!!?] and i was supposed to contain them. O_O then i somehow got to the place where the zombie peeps were and i sealed the room's door with the uhh, broomsticks-put-through-across-the-door-handles method. *ermms, imagine door handles that are fashioned like cup handles and you stick the broom through the middle. yeaps.* but i felt pretty retarded later.. cause i peered in through the window after a while and realised that i only 'sealed' 1 of the 3 doors of the room. the other 2 doors were across, on the other side of the room. and the zombied broke out from the door that was diagonally across the sealed door. and i pretty much cant remember what happened. but the zombies really werent scary or anything though.. i cant remember about how they look and stuff at all actually.. ><" no idea why, but i didnt feel scared or panicky or any kind of feelings. i was like pretty calm throughout the whole of the 2nd part dream. but the room the that zombies were enclosed in, it was like my primary school music room except that there were actually only 2 doors on the same side *of the sealed door that side*..
and then i woke up for a little bit, and drifted back to sleep. there was a 3rd part. DDD: so longg right! but the 3rd part, i really couldnt remember stuff about it, except for the fact that there was a 3rd part hurr. ><"
wonder what dream i'll have tonight! suddenly quite excited about them. dreams, yeahh. hahahs. though they are stuff that are somewhat disjointed and random and make not much sense. hope my dreams lemme have dreams about really NAICEEE stuff once in a while! (*3*)
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Wednesday, August 25, 2010
: 3:08:00 PM :
i was thinking i should blog or not. ><" cause all i had been doing was doing my own thingys and lots of sleep AT 5AM IN THE MORNING. DD: yarr. i go to sleep when my malay neighbour next door wakes up. ><" during holidays, i get holed up in doing my own thingys and i still end up sleeping at unearthly hours. :\ very good job ferly. (*3*) so i only have some plain drabble to drabble about. (・◇・)
currently listening to kuroshitsuji OST now btw~ yayy for victorian-ish tracks and gregorian chanting. and ermms.. some german.. O_O yeapps. let's see, ive listened to stuff of a variety of languages so far; japanese the most, korean, chinese, english, latin, finnish. german's a first this time. and the very classy victorian ones make me feel liek im in some chic cafe with awesome coffee. :D and maybe some yummy pastries. for teatime. :D
AH. i feel so supaa lazy! and when i have lots of sleep stuffed into me. i start to have DREAMS. that i remember rather vividly even when i wake up. the day befor one was about ermms, me running around through my old old nygh secondary school while some part of my brain keeps thinking it was ngee ann. and i realised that only when i woke up. O_O yesterday's one was me thinking that i had missed my o levels english oral test and that i was talking to one of my primary school friends, cause she missed it too. and i was worried about the getting scolded by the form teacher and that miss goh *my primary school english teacher* would scold us and i was saying that she would definately throw us out of class. but the friend was mentioning that there might be another re-test conducted. and i was wondering in my mind as well, that how could i have missed it when i remembered to go for the chinese oral test. but funnily after i woke up, did i realised why would my primary teacher be scolding me for missing a secondary school test.. @.@ and that primary school friend.. we havent met since p6 and we weren't close friends either~ oh and she's not schooling in spore either. O_O my dreams lately, are funkily mismatched. but they have quite a recurring theme~ mostly seem to involve running and missing/absent/ late/overslept for some event.
but the 2 most epic adventure heart-thumping dreams i had involve really lots of running cause i was being chased and pursued by others. and on both counts, i didnt realise that i was supposed to run; it was someone else who suddenly came along and grabbed me to run for it with them. and it really felt like real running. (*A*) and cause i feel lazy already. :D so i shall continue typing them another day. :D
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
: 8:20:00 PM :
FEELING ALL REBELLIOUS HELLOS!
goshh. please dont ask me the damage ive done to my own grades this sem. and what others have done to it too. they will get karma right back in their asses, i tell ya.
other than that, ive picked up an awesome manga! Break Blade! 8DD never felt so excited about still pictures of mecha fights in my entire life until now. hahahahs. and i actually get what's going on in the fight scenes 3 quarts of the time. :D buttt. saddly i dont have any friends to share the mecha/wars/politics-esque love found in manga and books. OH HECK. i dont have anyone to share the love in my taste in music too. LULZ. guess it's alrights though. *HUGGLES THE NET*
going out with eileen this sat! CANT WAIT! <3>
UFUFUFU. feel liek dying my hair strawberrie blonde too plz! hah, what a copycat me. >///<" and also poke another hole on my left ear top there. (*3*) it's prolly gonna be just all talk anyways. so just lemme talk, harhars.
eileen and i were having this very interesting talk yesterday night. liek how she lieks to look at pictures of cigars. hahahahs. i was quite surprised actually! and about how yeelin worries that she might one day really go and do it. and we went on to talk about something along the lines of 'discrimination against smokers'~ but we dropped the topic in the end, hees. cause we have somewhat differing opinions in a sense. hmms. but i told her that i'll still be her friend even if she really does it. am i confusing you, the reader already? :p hahahs, not that it matters. but i do like to look at arty pictures of smoking/cigarettes/tattoos and the liek too. (*3*)
taking the lappy battery out with short nails is lil wee bit annoying. ><"
i havent finish up my PTM tutorials..
tmw need to go back school for attachment meeting. must remember to tell ruiling happy birthday. :D
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-- HESITATING MEANS DEATH - the GazettE [Italian translation - angeldevil87@LJ]
[English translation - distressedcoma@LJ]
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope the flowers that changed their colours will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you pour water on them without trembling
The colourful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again