色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
redberrie
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Sunday, November 21, 2010
: 10:37:00 PM :
URGHH. WHAT IS THIS. MY REPORT IS LIEK STILL IN MAGGOTRY PIECES. THERE ARE FREAKKING HOLES HERE AND THERE. AND I AM ON MY LOVELY WAY TO HITTING 5,000 WORDS. GO MEEE. HURRRR.
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010
: 6:02:00 PM :
i really wish i can be SO MUCH MOAR WORKAHOLIC than i currently am.
is there any medicine that does that?
or at least extinguish fatigue. so there wont be any need to sleep. (☆_-)
but i sort of miss having mysterious dreams during such working periods.
GO ALL THE WAY. (・◇・) (・◆・)
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Sunday, November 14, 2010
: 9:55:00 AM :
hallos hallos! im nom-ing breakfast nao! 1 green ang ku kueh and 1 other nuo mi fan + xiao mi la wrapped in green banana leaf kueh! [which idk how you call that. 8D] and there's lipton tea beside me too! in the green plastic mug that leepy gave me for my birthday! :) though it's cooled off cause i made it before going for a quick bath! and i could see the steam rising, wathing and rolling off from my morning hot bathing water! :D hahahs, i stayed a lil bit in the bathroom to stare at that. (*A*)
more interesting reads! as in magazine translations. hahahahs. but i think i like how reita described himself as. cause some sentences sound so pretty. >///<" and some of them. sound like me too, hahahs. ->> "I am easily attracted and I get easily bored." okays, maybe everyone feels like that too. hehh, i have no idea actually.
(˚∆˚) why the green leaf kueh today kinda have a tad of excessive chili oil.. ?
just help mother mixed black pepper chicken for today's lunch.. chao mian again.. ><" not very fond of it. but garlic chili sauce helps. :)
SOMEONE SRSLY PUNCH ME. I AM NOT TYPING MY REPORTTZZZZ. *DIES* """OTL
goodabye!
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: 12:46:00 AM :
btw, doesnt the forest look terrific?
it's shot from Arboretum, Belgium. :)
and i forgot to say! today! or yesterday's! whichever!
the weather's been wonderful! :)
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Saturday, November 13, 2010
: 10:28:00 PM :
OHAIDERE! you know, no one in the family seems to liek coffee + creamer, with no sugar at all. (*3*) father and mother says it doesnt have a coffee taste. LOL. but i like it. true that it doesnt have much of a coffee taste; it's like milky and with a slight bitter after taste. i think i like both sweet and bitter stuffs! like chinese tea and and also macha too! keziaa doesnt liek macha btw. was at 1st kinda shocked to know that she doesnt. i mean it was japanese food and stuff. XDD but turns cause it was bitter that's why she didnt like it. X] but so far, the orchard ion's ground floor tako has awesome macha i think. 8D still remembering that i 1st ate their tako and the macha float with cheryl. :]
oh yes, i just murdered my budget for the month today. 8DD bought a pair of new specs! they're Levi's and the lady boss of the shop says it's a limited edition frame model! (*A*) and that there's only 50 of them in malaysia! and she happened to obtain 2 for her shop~~ another one would be brown in colour. but i was having such a harddd timeee choosing between the Levi's one and the Giordano one[did i get the name right!? cant remember very well. ><"]. D: and i really wished that i had the cash to bring both home. HURR. cause cause the G ones were so so super light! (*A*) was shocked when i 1st tried them on! so really light and comfy! but ended up buying the Levi's cause cause.. idk!? the L's had more bold/thick frames and the lense area was bigger and i think that made me look moar bolder [!?] or intelligent [!!?] and that my eyes look less weeny. the G's were more normal/less bold frames and REALLY LIGHT, but the inside pattern reminds me so badly DD: of my old blue specs. so i decided to go with some specs style that i have never gone with before~~ ahh, if i had the cash! then the G's would be for working/studying usage and the Levi's one for going out usage! 8DD oh crap. i hope i will not end up being tempted to buy the G's next month.. D: I WON'T RIGHT. the sane part of me?! what's wrong! i wasnt supposed to like wearing specs. ""OTL
downloading huuugggeeee bunch of The GazettE songs right now! really liked few of the lyrics! :) and i wanna ramble abit about them. :]
"[Innumerevoli lacrime] (Countless tears)
[Scene senza tempo] (Timeless scene)
[Libertà senza nome] (Nameless Liberty)"
- from HESITATING MEANS DEATH. there's no italian in the song, the original lyrics sang were in engRish. but the italian translation looks sexy (courtesy from harukay0u @ LJ)! ah, how do i explain that some words and wordings look sexy and sophiscated in another language!? just look at how lame countless tears sounds in english to something like innumerevoli lacrime. (*A*) hmms, oh and maybe maybe cause the italian reminds me of latin! :3 btw. lately. ive disabled the display time function on my lappy. somehow disliked looking at the time when's it's like not during work hours. cause it passes too fast when im resting and fiddling around the net. -
その痛み知る君はやがてまた此処に種を植えて
色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
sono itami shiru kimi wa yagate mata koko ni tane wo uete
irozuita hana ga saku itsuka wo negau
sono itami shiru kimi ga furuezu ni mizu wo sosogeta koro ni
mita koto no nai iro no hana ga mata kimi wo sasou
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope that the flowers that changed their colors will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you water them without trembling
The colorful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again
- from Kugutsu e [傀儡絵]. it's near of the end song. it's a portion where Ruki's singing gets dimmed and it changes into some duet with a lady's singing added in as the lead vocals, with Ruki singing softly along with the same lyrics.. that's somehow beautiful, the sytle and together with the meaning of the lyrics. esp liked the part "..You, who know this pain..". -
-- Like reconfirming the inner most part of it?
-- Ruki [Yes, like that. Certainly, creating something completely new is difficult. More than inventing ourselves anew, it’s more like bringing out our strongest parts, which will still be like something new in to listen to.
* this one's an interview translation! from Zy #50 Ruki - Personal Interview, (translation credits to kiniro_ageha @ lj). i like the feel of the sentence! i know it's talking about music. but when i read the sentence. it just kinda striked back to me about people. like you know, how you can always hear ppl talk about that they feel fat and how they think/feel that they should diet and stuff, etc? like idk and im not sure.. maybe we are just somehow facing the big how of "bringing out our strongest parts", which is "also something new" but still ourselves and it will probably help reconfirm 'the inner most part of' who we really are as an individual.
let's see.. i have 2 points. firstly is the typical "the inside counts more than outside", "you're fine the way you look", blahh blahh. but that kind of saying is like somewhat of turning into a myth as well.
my other point is that i think knowing how to pull out your strongest parts is important. hmms, some ppl seem to do it so effortlessly right? perhaps it still takes you to understand yourself well enough to a good degree to do that. and i still dont think that i understand myself well at all and what makes me tick and all. and it made me link back to thinking on how i should focus on understanding myself better, in order to rightfully pull out my strongest parts. maybe in that way, i will get to reconfirm who i really am as a person.
but i feel kinda alarmingly round as of late as well, with all the crazy sitting down it the office and nom-ing of candies. uhh, the stiffness of my body is unbearable. so much so
that my tummy area hurts when i try to stretch my back. so omg scary please. :x the pain is making me really alarmed. O_O hope it fades off fast. in the meantime, will try to sit up straighter when doing work and stretching more. :<
a terrific long post. oh. if only reports spill out like how my thoughts do at times like these.
"He doesn’t know when the dark-haired man has picked up the sword again when the latter pushes his blade out of the way with steel of his own and steps closer."
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Thursday, November 11, 2010
: 12:37:00 AM :
I LOST MY SPECS! on the way home today! the blue ones that were supposedly the ones that i currently wear. and im actually somehow strangely feeling quite okays with it! they were all jittery and gonna fall into bits anyways. >D gonna be using back the red x black older one! even though there's quite abit of scratches on the right lense. :C hmms, suddenly taking a look at it againn, i think i love the red x black one alot. <3>
currently! my bag, my phone + ear phones and my specs are all matching red x black! *&hearts*
and vincci has tons of new shoes! (*A*) i feel liek trying on lots of them! since there are a few that kinda caught my eye abit. but none that really captured my heart yet! so maybe trying them out, i'll find something lovely!
and cant wait for AYABIE's new album to come out! pretty much loving the previews! go go yumehito! :))
in the meantime, chilling out with The GazettE's music! :DD
and i keep falling asleep during work. URGHH. WHRY LIDDAT. :x I CANT SEEM TO HELP IT. OMGS SHITS HOWS. think the whole world knows that i kept falling asleep already! ;;A;;
and today, there was once when i was nodding off.. with my left hand resting on the keyboard, and then somehow my eyes suddenly snapped open and awake. AND MY LEFTY HAD A REFLEX WHICH MADE A WILD GRAB AT THE KEYBOARD. omg. the sound was LOUD. DD: i swear a few ppl turned to my direction. ><" im suddenly grateful that im sitting facing the window, even though my comp screen is right smack facing the entire office. at least i dont fall asleep right smack in full plain freakking view of anyone. ><"
but this is still all so frustrating HAIS. HOW TO STOP. NOM-ING CANDIES ARENT HELPING.
and i dont see what's wrong with guys wearing powder and eyeliner and makeup and rebonding their hair. geez. if women can do that, why cant men do that? humans by nature, all aspire to look pleasing in everyone's eyes. peeps in the office were somehow chatting abit about dudes and makeup after lunch. generally, i just held in giggles and laughter when i think of v-kei guys. LOL. seriously! maybe maybe all guys should try wearing a lil makeup. 8DD *runs away and hides* >////<"
ARGHH. this weekend is so so packed with things to do.
I DIE DIE MUST NOT PROCRASTINATE.
CRIMSON. IN. THE. DARK.
ICE. COLD. BLOND.
i wanna dye my hair ice cold blond too! but i'll prolly get my butt kicked out from all 3 places; office, house and school. 8DD
AND I AM OFFICIALLY BENTOH-KUN'S IMAGINARY DELUSIONAL FRIEND. HAHAHAHS. 8D THIS IS SO FARNY. <33
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Monday, November 08, 2010
: 12:04:00 AM :
seriously ferly.
REPORTS ARE A FREAKKING SERIOUS DO OR DIE.
faster get them done. all in order. and high quality work please. dont start mentally crying your head off when you cant churn any good presentation out on the 25th.
you've got a couple of pretty effing good chances.
DONT RUIN YOUR LIFE WITH YOUR OWN HANDS FOR ONCE.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH AND FASTER GET YOUR HQ WORK DONE.
P.S. : btw, nice specs uruha. i liek those specs. 8D
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Friday, November 05, 2010
: 12:30:00 AM :
goodbye 3rd world. everything's seem to have changed.
after the silent revolution.
welcome to the chessboard and warfront of true blue frightening fridget loneliness.
the 4th world.
the "1's" that are all left behind. and the eyes that only show defiant crimson.
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-- HESITATING MEANS DEATH - the GazettE [Italian translation - angeldevil87@LJ]
[English translation - distressedcoma@LJ]
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope the flowers that changed their colours will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you pour water on them without trembling
The colourful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again