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色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
redberrie
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04-06-1991
NP - BA - ISCM - 3S01
ex-assumptionknight
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
: 5:24:00 PM :
heh. thanks everbody who helped me along the way in my life till now. ppl who had cared truly about me and my thoughts and my feelings. thanks for all what you guys did. =] esp you and her, sock, eileen, jiayi, xinyu, tingyun, irene, marissa, faustina and loads more squadmates, ncos, ma'am's, seniors, my fellow ug mates and tons more. carn really list all currently. bit brain block. stifles a yawn* im tired. nites evrybody. =) oh ya, harry potter and the goblet of fire is officially released! or at least until the cinemas are open and operating liao.
jiayou for open house, squadmates and np ppl. and farewell too, squadmates. =) all the best!
i dunno what to say to comfort you. but just let you know if there's anything u need you can approach me.
thank you. =)
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
: 4:21:00 PM :
what the hell man. fuck. if you hate me so much. why dont you go ahead and kill me then. my dear mother. god, i hate you.
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: 9:05:00 AM :
blah. =X
gosh. what the hell did i do this holiday, or should i say today, to offend my damn crazy mum. i really dont know what she wants. and she doesn't want to say either. i studied for almost 2 hours today, then was forced to go and cut my hair. come home then i watch tv for half an hour and she accuses me of watching tv the whole afternoon. what the hell. what's her problem. im so damn sick of her shit attitude. im sick. so sick. dont know how long i can stand her anymore without cracking. who the hell does she think she is. miss universe or the prime minister. control freak. so desperately trying to command what everybody's doing. why cant she just shut up for once and mind her own business and keep her big fat nose out of my stuff. how dare she ban me from going to nco course. and dun let me go my last squad outing. oh no. im not going to forget this. im so not going to forget it. ban me from nco course. im gonna suan zhang one day. i dun take cheek or shit from anybody. i cant even decide my own hairstyle. hello!!! its my hair. not yours. gosh. my mum's an ah-soh. im cracking. shes driving me mad. why cant i have a nicer mum, or at least a mum who listens to me, my ideas and my opinions about life and other stuff. i dont ask for an intellectual mum. just a mum who will accept me as me. and love me for who i am, what i do, and what i love. is that too much to ask. why dont you understand. sometimes. i think you dont even try. cos you dont care.
im in such a damn bad and cranky mood. there's no need for anyone to read whats written above. if you want to read then just read. and keep your mouth shut. if you got lots of comment then dont read. nobody's telling you to.
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005
: 4:53:00 PM :
hello. i've been reading harry potter fan fic the whole day long. haha, its called harry potter and the battle of wills. think its good. but it does have really lengthy chapters. 51 chapters=343890 words. whoa. cool man. haha, figured it out that it needs alot of patience and determination to write a book heh. btw, its one of those lcpl xiyu posted on her blog recommending ppl to read. =) yes. its good. =] fantastic heh. think it has very good and accurate and clear description of the battle scenes and all the climaxes of the story. oh, and the url-> http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2009130/1/ . go and read it if you're lyk me, have nothing better to do. but seriously i think im waging a silent war against my mum. and i think she's determined to caged me in this damn house for the whole of the holidays. =(
listening to zhang dong liang's gu dan song. haha, dunno what its called. accidently opened ... and happen to hear it. but i think its a very nice song. =] btw, his a m'sian singer. =) from sarawak i think. and gracia's friend's relative or something cos zhang is actually not a very common surname over there, east m'sia.
bleargh. my er jie's shoo-ing me off cos she needs to use the comp. haha, but she twisted her left ankle again. the 3rd liao. haha. huo gai. but i have to service her head and foot lyk maid liddat. =[
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
: 3:05:00 AM :
help. im really bored to death. its either watching the telly all day long bu ran jiu shi stare and sit in front of the com. haven even started thinking bout my moi and im suppose to hand the plan in tmw, etc. just read sir chun fung's mail via jiayi's inbox. haha, and we're suppose to do self-intro, my rank, and name, and main position in Corps for 5 minutes. and jiayi was muttering on the phone, saying that its gonna take her less than 20 seconds to do that haha. oh ya, we were on the phone last nite from 10+ to 12 midnite. haha, almost 2 hours. gosh, and her daddy was rushing her cos is she call me one. really enjoyed the talk though. =] argh!!! i carn wait! i want to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire!!! haha, and i think we said we were gonna watch together some time ago. =) harry potter!!!! lalala...
and most of all,
i missed you alot.
=)
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Friday, November 11, 2005
: 1:43:00 PM :
yes, im gonna stand by georgina's side. i do believe she's worth the respect. =)
hope you're hearing this, jiayi and valerie dear. =]
you respect a junior.
she gives you the respect.
hope you're hearing this, jiayi and valerie dear. =]
you respect a junior.
she gives you the respect.
you deserve.
this
is
this
is
mutual respect.
it's earned.
not demanded.
thanks lcpl rebaca. i finally get what you mean.
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
: 9:45:00 AM :
argh! screams and screams and yells the house down* my mom forbids me to go to choral nite tommorow!!! she is so mean. how evil can she be leh.. sobs. but i dun care. and i shall go. haha. if she doesnt let me go, i'll kill myself. =( haha, anyway. thank god. my dad is supportive of me! and he lets me go!!! yippy!!! somemore, he's gonna come and fetch me home. haha. sometimes i really do like my dad better than my mum k. he tends to take things in an easier pace. =) unlike my mum. she goes entirely berserk when things go very wrong. headless chicken. she should really think wider and clearer k. but again, sometimes i do lyk my mum better heh. =) hmm, ppl are all weirddd.
wee! and i do love ma'am loh! =) haha, guess sock was right, she is so nice! haha. must thank her alot. she's really very caring and concern heh. true spirit of a st-johner. =) beams* k, i must jiayou hard! to make sqms, ug-mates, ma'ams', and my friends really proud of me. =p hugs everyone*
and oh ya, talked to jiayi on the phone in my aunt's house using my own handphone. lame. haha. and she told me that she has written 9 postcards for me liao haha. bugged her to write 10 instead and she said yupps okay write the 10th one for you when i reached sch. yupps, chatted for 23 minutes+ and now sadly my phone is gotta run out of money. again. ='( left 4 bucks+ only. blah. haha. anyway, seems like alot of ppl know about it liao. i dun really care who knows and who doesn't liao larh. now that i've gotten over it. but yeah, im just gonna surround myself with loads of ppl that i feel comfy with and enjoy their friendship and company. =] feels that that's the most impt thing to do now heh.
and sir chun feng called me when the car was kinda halfway through the customs to m'sia. and i was sleeping at 3+. yar, and he knows too. probably jesline ma'am tell him liao bah. god, my mum is screaming and arguing with my er jie in the kitchen. wonder what the hell their doing. but sounds lyk my sister chuang da huo liao. muahaha. =] haha. anyway, he told me the goodness-knows-what-latest piece-of-homework-that-have-to-do-the-powerpoint-or-some-kinda-presentation-thingy, my topic is bleeding. haha. blood=bleeding. full-stop. aiyah, dunno anything about it. =X
anyway, i think im most probably gonna join red cross. haha. i feel mean to say this. but their u is quite ugly. haha, very un-glam. oops. =X
and sock! jiayou for choral nite! hugs! yee lin too! blubber the red-spike haired paikia, jiayou too! =D haha. hmm, come to think of it. i really do hope she'll come to my choral nite heh. it'll be one of my last chances to ever see her again.
ps: i think im gonna bring camera to school tomorrow. haha. shall snap lots of pictures for memory. sj board, sj room, benches, parade square, basement, spiral staircase etc. =p
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Thursday, November 03, 2005
: 3:38:00 AM :
a new dawn.. a new beginning.. i'll need the strength to stand once again. i'm no loser and im gonna win this fight.
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-- HESITATING MEANS DEATH - the GazettE [Italian translation - angeldevil87@LJ]
[English translation - distressedcoma@LJ]
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope the flowers that changed their colours will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you pour water on them without trembling
The colourful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again