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色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
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ex-assumptionknight
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Monday, May 28, 2007
: 8:04:00 PM :
REALLY. HONESTLY WHAT'S THE FREAKING BEEG ISSUE BOUT? WHAT'S YOUR BLOODY HELL PROBLEM MANN. JUST BECAUSE I LENT MY FRIEND A CHINESE DICTIONARY AND DIDNT BRING IT HOME TODAY?? PLEASE LAHH FOR GOD'S SAKE. WHY THE HELL WOULD ROUFUI EVEN WANT TO STEAL MY CHINESE DICITONARY THAT'S OLD AND TATTERED LIAO. GROW UP PPL. YOU GUYS ARE JUST DAMN IMMATURE. IRRITATING. WTH. YOU GUYS CAN LENT YOUR SO CALL FRIENDS STUFFS WHY CANT I? WHAT'S MORE YOU GUYS LENT THINGS THAT ARE SO MUCH MORE EXPENSIVE THAN A FREAWKING DICTIONARY. RIDUCULOUS. I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS CYCLE OF ENDLESS STUPIDITY AND DUMBNESS. I WANT OUT OF THIS FAMILY. ENOUGH. I HAVE NEVER GIVEN A BLOODY DAMN MANN.
wth. so pissed off by my parents. esp my dad. anyways, something that struck me the same as this kinda feeling that i feel towards my parents nowadays for a long time.. something that Ichiru Kiriyu said when he was talking to Zero [Vampire Knight, chapter 20]; "that those parents were gruadually becoming meaningless beings to me.." yeahh. meaningless beings. that's how i feel too.
never end
never end
Even if my dreams come true
never again
I will probably show no smile
Time won't stop
It lures me to a path of solitude
Will I just continue tumbling along?
While bearing this mask
never end
Hurting those who touch me
never again
Day after day of piled up mistakes pass by
For the sake of enforcing myself
What have I lost?
spear of hatred is pointed at this chest
Look, someone is taking aim
Turn, turn, spiral of fate
If the answer lies beyond
To the west, to the east, to the north, to the south
Let's engrave the earth with our steps
never end
Why do people do the same things over and over?
never do again
Getting drunk on flowers bloomed from vanity
Embraced by false love and dreams
Where am I trying to go?
The remains of my heart will cry,
That there's no future there..
Circulating emotions gush out
I cannot stop here
Changing the tears hidden within my heart
To a rain of passion
Turn, turn, spiral of fate
If the answer lies beyond
To the west, to the east, to the north, to the south
To engrave the earth
Circulating emotions gush out
I cannot stop here
Changing the tears hidden within my heart
To a rain of passion
nice nice nice? will you believe me if i said i wrote it?
6 more days, i seriously wonder whether will You remember. all i ask for is that You would remember. im willing to have the rest of the world forget about it. but You must remember bout it kays. onegai?
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Saturday, May 26, 2007
: 12:46:00 AM :
heys. ^^ im tired now. yawns* ive been surprisingly easily tired out lately. just stared at the mirror quite carefully just now. OUCH. i feel that my precious facial complexion has so so deterioriated. arghh, why am i talking bout my face now??! things are so not helping with my on and off nose blocks. =Z ZZZ. and the silly stoopid torrents downloading so so slowly. why the hell did shinsen go and turn claymore ep 8's avi format into a galloping 233.33 mb? hoee, i dont even have 50% yet. =C and where is my darker than black ep 7, shinsen?? oops, that sentence sounded so badd. i shall take it back. ^^ sorrys.
GAHH. there's so much trival things in my life that i want to blog about. but i know i dont have any kind of time liddat. basically, summarising up this week : it's been terrifically xian. i so so do not enjoy chinese intensive. freaking boring. nobody to chat to. i insist that i lyk normal lessons in class better. i lurbb my seat. i lurbb my seat's good fengshui. XDD and i so so do not lyk cramped places for studying, makes me feeling berry cramped + stuffy = uncomfortable. and i realised that sitting with roufui distracts me!! cause i cant concentrate. roufui's mostly crapping to weiyi and/or linjie and i'll either be laughing at some silly thingy they did or distracted by irritaitng whispers? hahaa, if it was xinmei, she might have told them off le?! X] i know sock would!! i think they both have parallel personalities hehh. ^^
and the other irritating thing bout intensive is that on tuesday? or is it almost every single day of intensive?? i hear some ~!@#$%^&* freawking irritating + immature + air-head + dumbass + bastard + idiot + humongous stoopid git insulting my chinese name. you know what? zhen shi mei jia jiao. hope you guys flunk your chinese o's, dammit. why? cause ppl lyk you guys dont deserve to pass. whatever. i really HATE it when ppl make fun of my name. so bloody hell stop it. even chee leng, jane and that ng do that too. oh yeahh, and alvin sir also. some ppl just dont know what's enough or when is enough. hope these idiots get beaten up into pulps when they do dumb things lyk this outside in society one day. completely brainless. totally hopeless arhh. im so pissed by this. HMPHH.
hahaa, actually the main purpose of this post was to reply tags one. sorrys! im replying quite late, i know and i feel guilty. cause they're all good friends and squadmates i miss. huggles*
kezia : haiyos, go download yourself, silly girl~!! XDD that's what your gendou account is for!!anyways, the download function has already been fixed le. ^^
jiayi : heys too, jiayi dear! =] yupps, i will take good care of myself de. ^^ dont worry. oh and you finally tagged~!! ^^ must must must tag more often kays? ^^ oh and i ermms.. i forgot to save your new phone number that you left on msn message that day. ackk. so can you please leave me the number on msn againn? thank kews~!! take care of yourself too. bu yao lei huai le hor. study hard and JIAYOUS dear! nicee beeg huggles* ^^ missed you lots.
p.s. : hehe, wei luckysock still is as shuai dai le and cute as ever!! X]
pui : haha, of course you see me online! cause i see you too!! ^^ im berry understanding de, and i know how madd + hectic + crazy all those sias workload can pile up to. dont be sadd!! ^^ cheers k? hahaa, jiayous and do a good job for them kays? they can help pull your overall grades de and save you from some horrible fate?! XDD yeahh, i do go back to nanyang once in a while hehh, mostly on fridays. hmms, if im going back i will most probably blabb it on my blog de, yupps. X] remember to take care hehh. ^^ missed missed missed!!
Lucky No.13™ : O_O EHH?! WHAT'S THAT? NVM, TOTALLY NOT INTERESTED. T_T AND SALESMEN + SALESWOMEN + RANDOM ADVERTISEMENTS ARE NOT ALLOWED ON THE TAGBOARD!! TSK. XDD
hushen : boo!! pokes* haha, you have missed me alot bahh, yes i know. that's precisely what you have missed~!! XDD hahaa, so diao. anyways, nonsensical blabber is strictly prohibited on the board! you'll waste the markers one lorhh. another diao one.. T_t anyways, hope you have been well dear! must take care lots and study hard k? hehe, cheers ^^ berry much missed.
gosh, i really took a berry long time didnt i? i always take a long time to blog de, cause i tend to do other things at the same time as well. tsk, badd habit. it's 2.30 am le, actually i started typing at 1.20+ am. gotta go change my featured zhu da ge ehh. and edit the songs section. XDD dont ask me why. i just lyk plonking my top favourite songs on my blog. ^^
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Monday, May 21, 2007
: 12:25:00 PM :
anyways, the translated lyrics for Tsukiakari by Rie Fu, from Darker Than Black. gendou has stopped being xiao, finally. but the download function got stalled for today. ='C
The moon lights its way across the blue, blue sky
I am enraptured by sweet and fleeting thoughts
Secretly, under this moonlight
I called your name
You were always searching for the future
In this light
Even on the nights that i lacked the courage to talk to you
I still thought of you
Every single day, i don't think about it
I pray that my wandering feelings will reach you
Underneath this moonlight,
You called my name
I will definately come to you, wherever you are
In this light
[translated lyrics credits : shinsen subs]
hurhur, the lyrics from gendou are so ermms, translated but there's no feeling to it anymore. shinsen's one are better. ^^ nicee? for idiot de.
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: 11:42:00 AM :
total anime rant or just skip to the bottom.
warning : this is gonna be a total anime rant. just dont read if you dont lyk anime. which probably most of the ppl visiting is. sighs* skip to the bottom then~
hahaa, silly qiaoyang!! bo liao lahh. "u know that code geass, jigoku shoujo n ghost hunt licensed in sg?!" , " which means its a matter of time before i go to court or whatever." XDD hahaa. hmms, that reminds me that i saw some code geass merchandise at comics collection last thursday i went there~!! yeahh, i saw the fan ni ri ji. dont know whether to buy anot. the stooopid shopkeeper guy is so so unfriendly!! hmphh. it costed $9.90. but i doubt it has anything inside, probably just a blank book? arghh, i dont want to be cheated. so shall see first..
anyways, kezia you lyk the Abingdon Boys School song, Howling?? i thinks its nicee too!! ^^ esp the english lyrics part mostly, at the start and the chorus there. and why does Abingdon Boys School sound so freakking good? cause its lead vocalist is T.M.Revolution. hahaa, so diao rites? yeahh, he formed this band in 2005, with another couple of ppl who play instruments~ Takanori Nishikawa is his real name, btw. he's the guy who sang five songs for the Gumdam Seed series; 3 for Gundam Seed and 2 for Gundam Seed Destiny. and also one of the ed's for Rurouni Kenshin, Heart of Sword. i lyk most of his songs. they're that kind of songs that you'll lyk alot even after only listening once. ^^ anyways, Abingdon Boys School's major label debut single, Innocent Sorrow [2006], was used as the 1st op for D.Gray-man. and their 2nd single, Howling [2007], for Darker Than Black. whah!! this does shows that they're good ehh, arent they? specifically T.M.Revolution's vocals ehh, and he's already 37 this year le. unbelievable. O_O kezia!! go watch darker than black!! and hurry up finish code geass lehh~!! ^^
btw, can some nice soul please please PLEASE find me a site where i can download the lastest vampire knight manga chapter for FREE?? sobs* i dont wanna go the silly vk forum that atemu suggested. so damn ma fan, still have to post 25 non-spam posts and whatever whatever.. blearghh. waste my time.. or just send over to me the chapters, can?? for more details, contact me via msn or in school. thank kews~!! ^^
end of anime rant~~
anyways, good day everyone. take care and jiayous for whatever you have to do today and tmw. blearghh. i dont look forward to intensive tmw. gonna be so xian lahh. oh, must remember to bring dictionary and print out letter for chong.
there's nothing crazy anymore. last night made me realise the choice i would have taken, if given a choice. not that everything's over yet. just that, i know where You stand in terms of importance. You belong to the not-so-important category. yeahh, and ive got better things that i need to do and finish. so i guess, i'll just kick You aside first. oops, sorrys. but there's seriously nothing to mope over now. i think.
gotta go cook lunch now, byebye.
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: 2:47:00 AM :
poems?!
my posts are honestly getting more and more ridiculous and sheng jing bing le!! yeahh, i wrote bout one-eighth of a poem dedicated to idiot. haha, and thank kews yeelin for your freakking sweet comment and making me cry. ='C hmphh. and thanks eileen too. ^^
you shall now see my pathetic one-eighth chinese poem, hahaa :
踏入这个新的时空
在茫茫人海中
第一个注意到的人
就是你
本来坐在后边
后来被调到了..
我如今也记不起的地方
似乎靠近有紫色的地方..
仍在后边, 但好远
那段时光也就刹那的
悄悄, 宁静的过去了
与你隔着一段走廊的日子
只是大约七天之久
this is lyk so so incomplete, hahaa! okays, maybe i should resign and just write in english? ! O_o nobody is supposed to understand this poem k? so dont worry if you dont. it's a work of art by a genius lyk me afterall~!! X] okays, cross that last sentence off please. thank kews.
btw, do you know why idiots are called idiots? cause they are freakking slow at getting things and detecting paranormal activity around them. either that, or my acting + drama + lying + cheating skills are 100% professional. i dont make sense, ahahaa~!! X]
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: 1:08:00 AM :
my sunshine, moonlight, glowing star. ^^
ive decided not to publish that post i just wrote. so emo. TSK. i dont lyk being emo. but sometimes, i cant help being emo or jealous bout others. thank kews fishy. what you wrote was nicee. seriously. i can never do poems, despite my supposed beeg vocabulary bank. XDD hmms, nevertheless, i think that a song dedication is not badd. im just simply badd at expressing my feelings and thoughts.
btw, Howling by Abingdon Boys School is the 1st op for Darker Than Black, Tsukiakari [tv size] by Rie Fu is the 1st ed. hahaa, the 2 songs are so so different rites? but Tsukiakari is really sweet. nicee. ^^
translated lyrics :
ouch, gendou is hanging!! freakk. shall post later. darker than black ep 6 is almost finish downloading le. bye bye.
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
: 10:44:00 PM :
ZOMG. i just went to xinmei's blog. and im so so shocked. lyk the sky just crashed down or something. believe it anot. im trembling now. shucks. after talking to xinmei, yeahh. ouch, my spirits and mood is so so dampen.
my brain's feeling berry messy now. so are my emotions. GAHH. but i got what i deserve don't i? 等价交换. that's the way this world works doesnt it? lam ferly, no use lamenting bout mid-years le. whatever the results are, just let them be. the thing you have to gear up and prepare for is o's. prelims then o's. o's chinese. you have to get a better grade than b3 k? what happened? after those 6 years that you have slaved so hard for. you threw away your own chance of a lifetime. isnt that enough? those things you did as well.. well, you know them better than the rest of the world. time to wake up now dear. you've been hiding away from the world all this while. you know it yourself. what happened to the 80+% you use give? tired is no longer an excuse. there is something wrong with you not putting in enough effort to study. you need to land on earth. anime is anime. you dont live in an anime world, afterall. by all means, it's equilvalent to a drug to you. drugs can be quitted de. the way you see things are just sometimes, really despicable. dont you think so? i feel that im trapped in a blood-stanined labyrinth. i saw a way out that's impossible to be true. but i can also pave my own way out. rites? i believe you can do it. and it's not necessary to use You. no, i dont need You to accomplish this at all. with what little truth i have left in my heart, mind and soul. lying to yourself is not a funn thing to do. trust me.
anyways, translated lyrics for new song, Howling by Abingdon Boys School, from the spring 2007 anime, Darker Than Black. [ just caught up with this anime this weekend, so far shinsen-subs has released 6 episodes. feel that this a pretty good anime hehh, action-packed and interesting. the story might be confusing for the first few episodes, but well, the directors are laying down the foundation of the show and narrating bout the terminology and stuff. but the first episode did remind me of code geass hehh!! all the chasing and running.. XDD anyways, this anime's also berry much anticipated by lotsa viewers before the season even started. hmms, think the series will get better and better. X] watch watch watch!! and yeahh, hei just looks so cool when he's fighting~!! and the way he eats, hahaa! XDD the joker mask that he wears during battles just makes him look more eevil ehh? ^^ ] this whole chunk is cope-ed from the gendou msian thread, typed before my spirits got dampen.. sighs*
The night sky full of cries
Hearts filled with lies
The contract- is it worth the price?
A soul pledged to the darkness
Now I’ve lost it
I know I can kill
The truth exists beyond the gates
Tears flowed from my shut eyes
The fragments of reason and blood are repeatedly eaten away
I don't want anything anymore
[My exposed feelings around Turn round]
I don't feel the way as before
[Gang Bang Son of a gun]
In the rift between our two entwined chests
You only desire this parched body of mine
With dirtied fingertips, I pour into the night
Prying you open until you shred
Within a light slumber, my thoughts that have peeled off creak
If just about anything might erase everything now
Sun will rise Close your eyes
Downfallen [Fallen] Falling
Hold inside
Just HOWLING in the shadows
While being beaten upon by the incessantly pouring rain
I bored my nails deeply into your back that I cling onto
I don't need anything anymore
[No one else can take my place]
I don't see the way as before
[I’ve been lost without a trace]
As if obstructing someone’s touched dream from continuing
My heart was closed off
With dirtied fingertips, we embraced each other many times
Reeling you in aimlessly
My faint memories still blot through my remaining wounds
Even if everything that I gained is a mistake
With the power that awakes every time when I lose it
These dirtied wings pour into the night
Prying you open until you shred
Within a light slumber, my thoughts that have peeled off creak
If just about anything might erase everything now
Sun will rise Close your eyes
Downfallen [Fallen] Falling
Give me sight to see inside
I’m calling
Take a bite night by night
Downfallen [Fallen] Falling
Hold inside
Just HOWLING in the shadows
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
: 10:27:00 AM :
blearghh. =X im hungry hungry hungry. feeling berry lazy, but i shall finish replying tags before flying off to watch more anime. ^^
kezia : hahaa, sorry bout zero's elbow. the blogskin creator also cant help it. this pic came out as one of those random pics in between the chapters rites? yeahh, and the manga page cut his elbow off one.. but it's still hott. X] and what's rabu?? O_o
qiaoyang : MUAHAHAA~!! XDD i completely PWNED you mann. hahaa, got you back with this for spotting the red ouran blogskin first.. btw, i saw another vampire knight skin, yuki X kaname one. pretty good ehh. you want? http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=139533&action=Preview
it was my 1st choice before i found this kaname and zero de.
shinyi : ELLOs shinyi~!! X] haha, you're welcomed for the rochers dear! glad that they made your day hehh. hmms, actually i wanted to ask you something de yesterday, not tell lahh. maybe i shall ask you when you come online on msn. and yupps~!! im coming back for camp! for bbq, to be more specific. cant come for the whole camp lahh, mom will never allow de. hahaa, you guys want rochers during camp? i'll buy for the whole squad if you guys want.. ^^ and it's really nicee of you to thank me for coming back, shinyi dear! ^^
ouch, there wont be any music currently.. cause i make up my mind which song i want. nvm, i shall just put both the op and ed from darker than black LATER. bye bye then.
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: 8:51:00 AM :
ouch, nose block.. ><
it's truly rare that i wake up so early nowadays. yawns* but im still feeling bit sleepy ehh. and my fingers are kinda lazy to type. X] hais, why is my claymore ep 7 downloading so so so slow?! pooof. i wanna faster watch teresa battle things out with number 2, 3, 4 and 5 in the organization!! hahaa, it's funn to see blood being spilt. XDD okays, that was a really insane comment. hmms, in the meantime, i shall just watch darker than black to satisfy myself. and blog while listening to music. btw, ive decided that i lyk kaname and zero equally. ^^ hehe, but still kaname bit more hehh. X] hmms, im also wondering whether is takuma a pure-blood vampire?
ahh! yesterday went back to see squadmates~!! yeahh, that was one of the best visits back. ^^ thank kews squadmates!! huggles* spent my money eating and drinking.. let's see, i ate a slice of watermelon, a small bag of cheese-flavoured corn chips, 2 small packets of original-flavoured seaweed and a fish snack thingy. ^^ hahaa, im terribly good at wasting money ne? btw, sock was quite high and happy when she saw me. X] but i think i kinda confuse you by looking quite upset about something.. arghh, nvm. she lyk the little chick that i gave her though. and she said wo gei cuo ren le, cause she will keep squeezing that poor little chick de. OUCH. hahahaa, me and jiayi spent quite some time talking. and we were fooling round with the whiteboard and markers discussing possible variations of a name. so bo liao lahh!! but funn ehh. later bugged valarie to help me come up with variations as well. and she used her phone to search.. and we came up with a really nice on hehh! ^^ xinyu also contributed some berry gek-king ones. -_____-"' hahaa, so diao and i was laughing maddly. but thank kews to all who contributed. ^^ oh yeahh, i also saw ang ang yesterday. she came back too hehh. =] only saw her from the 2nd floor, in front of the guides board and she was at the field, in front of the clock tower there.. you look fine, at least i think so. all the best in your life then. ^^ 有些人和事早已成了过去.
i dont understand why you would say such things bout her, even more unable to comprehend why you would tell me such things. no, you're threatening me now. why? dont you feel that you've always been very wu li qu nao. ridiculous. what utter rubbish. i had always sincerely expected more mature things from you. and what you're doing feels so kindergarden-ish. tell me, if you have a good enough reason. im willing to listen. but im not going to do things without reason. i've always been trying my best to listen to you.. those words made me quite upset. can you stop telling me to do things without giving me a reason? i ran away. duhh. no, i havent ask you why yet. but i will another day. even if it means kicking up a fight with you. no one is perfect. havent you realise? at this rate, i feel that you wont be left with much friends hehh honestly. or are you just jealous of her? that's never a good reason. it's not even a reason. please, grow up and get a life mann.
维护.
飞翔.
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Friday, May 18, 2007
: 3:25:00 AM :
blearghh, cannot take it le!! SLEEPY! shall go sleep. then resume construction tmw. yawns* anyways, im starting to really lurbb this blogskin hehh. berry user-friendsly. much user friendly than the hikaru and kaoru one. that one was berry squished up ehh, seriously look so crammed. >< hmms, and maybe i'll also test out different fonts for different sections.. oh yeahh and also the music.
nites. ^^ yawns againn*
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: 1:47:00 AM :
vampire knight!!
GREATT. ive just finished major and really major re-vamping for this hikaru and kaoru skin. yes and i mean major re-vamp, went to chose the different fonts for different parts of the blog and editing the wonky code by the not-so-pro blogskin maker.. okays, i didnt edit any codes, merely deleted off the whole chunk that was wonky. and NOW!! im changing another blogskin againn!! haiyo, tsk me lahh. fickle-minded de. but how do i know there'll be nicey nicee skins for vampire knight?! afterall, it's still published in manga. but yeahh, kaname and zero are HOTT. X] anyways, the main culprits in the end are qiao yang and atemu. im lyk so high in the middle of going kyaa~!! over ouran and they started chanting away bout vampire knight. but it's kinda sadd that there's no code geass skins round!! ahh! i want my lulu~!! XDD pure anime/manga madness going on in this post. XD arghh, heck it. oh yeahh, shucks. zero is starting to look so much hotter than kaname le!! hellos! kaname, can you faster do something or i fear i might go over to zero's side le. unflawless!! shhh! cannot tell atemu that i said this arhh! im her 'berrie' and amid lulu + kaname fan. ^^ ahahaa, when worse comes to worse, i'll be lyk switching blogskins according to my mood?! im already switching the featured music lyk madd liao.. hehe.
btw, ermms, i hope that unflawless is die-ing of jealousy when she sees this?! XDD
hmms, having lots and lots of inner self mood swings inside me. no, i dont show them out. it's just this messy feeling in your head, brain, heart and emotions. yes, it's precisely the result for feeling too much at the same time. the ironies of being a human being. -______-"' okays, maybe i dont make sense. X] feel kinda giddily happy and cheery currently though. actually, wanted to type something for some reasons de.. yeahh, cause was feeling emo just now. arghh, i feel emo whenever im alone and really tired?! well, that's normal i suppose.
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
: 2:38:00 AM :
whoo~!! new blogskin! hahaa, so lurbb the above pic. X] ahh! dont say it's ugly. you're not allowed to do so. it's under construction too.. yeahh, so i shall continue tmw. TIRED now, it's 2.45 am, almost 3 in the morning already. yawns*, i shall just go sleep. ^^
yayy! hikaru and kaoru~!! X]
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Monday, May 14, 2007
: 4:28:00 PM :
ahh!! found my formal class photo liao! ^^ yupps, found it when i was unearthing my TREMENDOUS mountain of papers for my art mid-year question paper. pheww. thank god i found it. okays, later still need to help hao hao translate her art introdution from chim chinese to BERRY chim english. ^^ surprisingly, i do quite lyk to do this kinda stuff. it's funn and you can be berry luo suo and stuff lotsa vocab into those sentences. XDD yes, then hopefully i can napp till dinner and shall chiong till the night!! pulls out coffee mug and coffee sachets*
hmms, im quite considerably genki today, i guess. PWNED sebastian at guessing history paper 2's essay questions. was actually quite shocked myself that mr chiu didnt gave us a choice of essay questions ehh. hahaa, and yes!! japanese invasion came out rites? knew it would. most probably anyway. but i didnt do berry well either, okays. the paper was fine.. i didnt finish!! yayy! dots* but i dont know why i was still so happy when doing it. -____-"' cause it was easier than paper 1?! anyway, cant wait for tmw to end~!! that means i have to study even harder and face the consequences for not woking hard.. but that also means i can go and search for an ouran blogskin~!! ^^ yupps. nods* gonna go visit squadmates on friday too!! yayys! cant wait to see you guys againn. dinner anyone?? hahaa, or i'll resort to dragging ppl out to dine with me. X]
hmms, cept during the trip home. was kinda pissed?! i dont lyk being alone anymore. [roufui had to go buy stuff at woodlands for her mom. and i had art to deal with when i get home.] arghh, i dont know. its been so long since we last spent some time together. yes, freawking long. and i dont even get the opportunity to meet you somewhere else. even it's for awhile, im fine with it. =C hais, looks lyk things are going to remain the same for the rest of this month ehh. sobs*
onegai?
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Sunday, May 13, 2007
: 2:09:00 PM :
whoo!! im high~!! hahaa, finished watching Ouran High School~!! ZOMG! it's so good! more more~!! let's have a season 2! yayy!! my favourite characters are tamaki and hikaru~!! hehe, now i know why kezia said she lyks hikaru. ^^ hmms, what did i learnt? tons of laughter, and i apsire to be freawking rich + one can be friggin clever and attractive at the same time + study hard and play hard!! nvm if doesnt make sense to you.. im used to not making much sense to others liao.
my this year's class photos!! dont think squadmates have seen it hehh. ^^ arghh, i cant find my own class photo, it's the formal version de.. somewhere in my thick pile of stuffs. nvm, shall steal someone's one. it's the non-formal version de and i really really really regret that i didnt buy it!! haha, fishball, you get what i mean dont you? =C GAHH. cause i was ermm, too busy looking at myself when choosing which photos to buy.. hahaa, im so zi lian! XDD
my this year's class photos!! dont think squadmates have seen it hehh. ^^ arghh, i cant find my own class photo, it's the formal version de.. somewhere in my thick pile of stuffs. nvm, shall steal someone's one. it's the non-formal version de and i really really really regret that i didnt buy it!! haha, fishball, you get what i mean dont you? =C GAHH. cause i was ermm, too busy looking at myself when choosing which photos to buy.. hahaa, im so zi lian! XDD
wo de zhu zi. ^^
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Friday, May 11, 2007
: 6:01:00 PM :
1. Your favorite colour out of: red, black, green, blue, yellow?
hmms, red, i guess.
2. Your first initial?
LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
3. What month were you born in?
june!
4. Which color do you like more, blackor white?
white bahh.
5. Name one of your friends?
eileen
6. Your favorite number?
ermms, 30??
7. Do you like flying or driving more?
flying!
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
ocean!!
Answers
1. If you choose : Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue- You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love and give good advice to those who are down.
Yellow - You are a very happy person..
2. If your initial is : A-K; You have a lot of love andfriendships in your life.
L-R; You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z; You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.
3. If you were born in : Jan-Mar; The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
April-June; You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever.
July-Sept; You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec; Your love life will be great and eventually you will find your soulmate.
4. If you chose : Black - Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at that time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White - You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.
5. This person is your best friend. mms, more lyk best squadmate. ^^
6. This is how many true friends you have in your lifetime.
7. If you choose : Flying - You like adventure.
Driving - You are a laid back person.
8. If you chose : Lake - You are loyal to your friends and your lover and you yourself is very reserved and not emotional.
Ocean - You are spontaneous and like to please people but have many emotions.
haha, think this quiz looks bit rubbishy, but heck hehh. im friggin tired!! i need SLEEP! blearghh, wished the dumb dumb torrent would load faster. ='C i wanna watch claymore ep 6~!! shall write a more productive post tmw. X]
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
: 6:14:00 PM :
| You Are 44% Evil |
 You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination. |
| Your EQ is 100 |
 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
| Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP) |
 Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal. Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving. |
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Monday, May 07, 2007
: 3:53:00 PM :
whooh~!! finally. the full version of Utsusemi no Kage~!! finally a nice soul uploaded song up to gendou.com. ^^ nice song hehh. its the ed for Rozen Maiden Ouverture, by Kukui! lovely group. always have berry special songs. hahaa, i really lyk the 'ahhs' sang by some guy choir or something?! anyways, enjoy~!! oh btw, i cant seem to find the english translation for it yet.. but i'll post the english meanings up as soon as possible. ^^ just take 4.25 mins to listen k? please?? its a really nice song.
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Friday, May 04, 2007
: 3:40:00 PM :
im feeling kinda -_____-"'. im taking this opportunity to blast japanese music in the house cause no one's home. hope that'll cheer me up abit. shall go bath later and then nap for as long as possible. why? cause i dont feel waking up. no no, im feeling empty le, today.
RICH KID
[ ] You go tanning. ( nopes, im tanned enough. the colour's just nice, in fact. )
[x] You own a cell phone. ( yeahh, and a berry ancient one. can go sell to the nokia handphone museum liao. )
[ ] You own something from coach.
[ ] You own something from chanel.
[ ] You own something from juicycouture. ( EEKS. the juicy stuffs are all simply disgusting. badd design + freaking unmatching colours. blearghh. >< )
[ ] You own something from louisvuitton.
[x] You love/like going to the mall.
[ ] You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[ ] You love Starbucks.
[ ] You have been called a brat.
[ ] You have tons of shoes.
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale.
[ ] You have more than one house.
Total: 2!
[GOTHIC]
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thought about death. ( well, use to. hahaa, but never now. ^^ )
[ ] You wear chains. ( OOH!! hahaa, this ounds funn! sadist. hahaa, normally no. but i dont mind if im cosplaying or something. XDD )
[ ] You like heavy metal. ( ermms, not really. i find those songs amusing. yes, highly amusing.. X] )
[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic. ( huh?! where's that? )
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] Your hair was/is dark. ( it is + was black. -____-'" )
[ ] You dislike preps. ( huhh?! )
[ ] You're an athiest/ satanist.
[x] You have/want piercings. ( yes yes!! )
Total: 4!
[PUNK]
[ ] You can skateboard.
[ ] You wear plaid. ( another weirdd word.. )
[x] You like Converse.
[ ] You hate MTV.
[x] You have/had/want blue, pink, red,purple, or green hair.
[x] You love/like skater girls/boys. ( hey, that's kinda cool + FUNN!! teach me! teach me! )
[x] You dislike pink.
[ ] You hate preps.
[ ] You wear/wore skateboarding shoes.
Total: 4!
[GEEK]
[x] You love the computer.
[ ] You like Star Wars.
[x] You are supposed/wore/wear to wearglasses.
[ ] You get straight A's.
[x] You love/like reading.
[ ] You were/are in band.
[ ] You don't care what you look like.
[ ] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never miss school unless you're sick.
Total: 3!
[EMO]
[x] You are depressed sometimes.
[x] You have/had black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday.
[x] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep/kept a journal/diary.
[ ] You have written a sad poem.
[] You have/had a sad MySpace/Friendster layout.
[ ] You think emo kids are hot.
Total: 5!
[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[x] You like rap. ( it's 'you like rap'.. NOT 'you like TO rap'.. )
[ ] you are in a gang. ( ermms, does a squad count?! XDD )
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You swear a lot.
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle.
[ ] You have worn converse with thetongue flipped out.
Total: 1!
[HARDCORE]
[ ] You like loud music. ( nopes, not with earphones. speakers are okay. but not all songs sound nicee being loud. )
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles!
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[x] You wear slip-on shoes.
[ ] You love Norma Jean.
[ ] You wear band t-shirts.
[ ] People have called you a freak and meant it.
[ ] "hardcore" dance
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color. ( i wish. XD )
[x] You wear blue jeans.
Total: 2!
[PREP]
[ ] You love The OC. ( O_O )
[x] You have/want/had a tiny/medium sized dog.
[ ] Your usual outfits consist of bright colors.
[x] You like buying shoes. [but not enough $$$]
[ ] You shop at American Eagle.
[x] You love/like to shop.
[ ] You love jeans.
[ ] You love paris hilton.
[x] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[ ] You wear big sunglasses.
Total: 4!
[Athletic]
[ ] You watch the Superbowl. ( X] hahaa, who knows, maybe You do?? ^^ )
[x] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect your/others jerseys.
[ ] You have/had had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] You have posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ]Your garage/shed consists of sportsequipment.
[ ] You belong/belonged to a schoolteam.
[ ] You are going/did go to a sportssummer camp.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
Total: 1!
wee!! im EMO! ackk. im an ELMO. an EMPTY ELMO. >< hahaa, so funny. XDD
somehow, wo jin tian te bie de xiang nian ni..
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Thursday, May 03, 2007
: 5:05:00 PM :
mm. managed to finish chinese paper 1, although i dont think the gong han and bao zhang bao dao was good, but decent i hope. chinese paper 2 was much easier compared to last year's o's, that's why i could finish it and maybe cause i wrote really faster this time. cept for 1 question that's 4 marks.. couldnt really make the head or tail so i just left it to do others.
nothing else much.. after paper 2, had a drink with roufui in the canteen while she drank her lemon barley and i drank 500ml of pokka green tea within 30 minutes. just that really felt drained + tired after paper 2.. i dont know how to put it ehhs, its just tired till the point you feel empty. hmms, not empty really, half to a quarter empty maybe.. the best word would be BLANK. yeahh, with a quarter of empty. oh, ermms nothing complicated or emo here, just tired as in 'i DESPERATELY need more sleep' kind of tired. but dont be surprised, it drags you down too. now i dont know HOW am i going to survive the rest of mid-years. die die die. poof. nvm , i shall sleep early tonight.
no no, it's nothing. really. just that im tired, blank and a quarter empty. and i want my bed hehh.
unless you can be my cuddly + cuddlesome pillow when im tired,
be a red soft pastel to colour me when im blank,
and fill me to the brim with xingfu-ness when im empty.
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Wednesday, May 02, 2007
: 6:17:00 PM :
yawns* yes, once againn im here to report on the fact that im tired. =Z nvm, shall genki up and go read my piles of chinese stuffy. come on ferly!! you can do it de woman. must do it. JUST DO IT.
went lunching with cheryl at lot #1 after sch. we ate korean food at the food court. ^^ i ate my favourite soba fish set and cheryl ate some chicken thingy. yes and we talked + chatted non-stop about everything and anything underneath the sun. ouch, and we had wanted to study de. went off to buy hair ties cause we lack them. cheryl bought 2 brown ones and i bought 1 brown and 1 light blue de. and a bunch of some stuffs..
i learnt something that i never knew before.. im not angry. yes, seriously. not with You or you. i guess its just the way fate twist and turns ppl's lives. there's nothing to lament about, nothing to be angry bout and absolutely no grudge to hold. life goes on.. just the way, in this peaceful tempo. but you know what? i dont want time to flow pass so quickly. i want it to float, slowly. yes, like that. im satisfied with just this. i want more, of course. but it's still not berry possible, i know that. i dont know. i only know and feel contented at this berry moment. nothing less than this.
oh yeahh, new song. from Code Geass - Lelouch of the Rebellion ~ Sound Episode 1 [drama cd], C.C's character song, Reincarnation by Yukana.
nice lyrics yeahh. translated lyrics:
Standing alone above the dunes
Looking up aimlessly at the heavens
Shifting the horizon, swaying
The sky is crying.
I forgive you.
I feel my love [for you].
But, short-lived mortal,
You are dying.
Yet another precious person
Is fading away.
*But even then,
Tears do not come.
What is eternal life
And things to lose time and again?
Though my heart may cry out from this sadness,
Fate's ever-looping path of tomorrow
Will not stop.
Emotions, I kill
Feelings, I hide (lit. 'Expressions, I hide')
Heartless, everything in this world.
I'm gonna miss you.
Even if we can touch
And suffer painful feelings,
**Tears will not come.
Eternal life is the same
As the weight of life going on to die. (lit. vanish)
Because you (I? we?)*** will be reborn again
Crossing space-time,
If we meet again, with you,
I will surely know.
*Repeat
Even then
**Repeat
[translated lyrics credit : verity_isle]
*** ermms, verity_isle isnt berry sure bout that part.. so yeahh. enjoy~!! ^^
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-- HESITATING MEANS DEATH - the GazettE [Italian translation - angeldevil87@LJ]
[English translation - distressedcoma@LJ]
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope the flowers that changed their colours will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you pour water on them without trembling
The colourful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again