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色付いた花が咲く何時かを願う
その痛み知る君が震えずに水を注げた頃に
見た事の無い色の花がまた君を誘う
redberrie
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04-06-1991
NP - BA - ISCM - 3S01
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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
: 10:40:00 PM :
ZZZZZZ.
I HATE SHARING MY LAPTOP WITH THOSE TWO STOOPID WOMAN!
WHY MUST I SHARE MY STUFF!
IT'S NOT LYK EVERYONE SHARES THEIR STUFF WITH ME!
AND WHY MUST I TYPE MY MOTHER'S OFFICE WORK!
WHILE ERJIE DOESNT EVEN LIFT A FINGER TO WASH HER OWN MUG!
AND SHE'S THE EMPEROR AND EMPRESSES PRECIOUS PRINCESS.
THE FREAKING UNFAIRNESS OF IT ALL.
SO MANY THINGS, I FEEL SO BITTER.
WHY AM I ALWAYS GETTING THE OLD STUFF.
AND ALL THAT SAME OLD STUFF.
I DONT LYK IT!
BUT IF I SCREAM, IT'S MY FAULT.
WHY!
JUST BECAUSE THE PARENTS GAVE THE BLESSED HOLY IMPERIAL ORDER?
THEN I ALWAYS END UP FEELING DAMN POWERLESS TO HELP MYSELF.
NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TRIED CLIMBING OVER THOSE WALLS.
c'mon ferly. cheer up. move on move on. dont stop walking. dont you dare stop walking towards the path that has light. no matter how unbearable you feel.
I DONT NEED TRASH PPL LYK THEM.
I WILL BREAK FREE OF THIS FINANCIAL DEPENDENCE.
uwahh, my mood to do work is all spoilt. ><" heys! thanks FOREIGNER. :DD
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Sunday, June 28, 2009
: 3:31:00 AM :
[image might take awhile to load! ><"]
rough sketch. rough sketch. rough sketch. :DD
from my blogskin that picture. :p
btw, doesnt the picture also look lyk 2 swans kissing?
when you only look at the outline / big picture, i mean. ^^
okays, and i really really damn need to focus on MT tmw.
*prays that she can be woken by her phones' alarm*
feel lyk blogging a long post! ><"
but i cant afford to! :C
cause i've rested the saturday away. ><"
all the best for tmw's extreme focus study session ferly. :p
you really need to FOCUS. ><"
STOP doing all your hobbies and stuff. ><"
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
: 12:07:00 AM :
shit. shit. shit. AND MORE SHIT.
when will it end??
ZZZZZ.
and why in hell cant my sisters just leave my lappy ALONE.
sometimes i just hate siblings.
annoying, useless, nuisance.
really feel lyk slapping certain ppl.
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.
c'mon, let me believe in it againn. :
be my pillar of confidence for the rest of my life. :
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
: 7:19:00 PM :
OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. i happened to stumble upon this! O_O
Final Fantasy Distant Worlds concert [spore] writeup - http://aestalitz.livejournal.com/320890.html
it sounds so EFFING EPIC COOL. OMG. OMG. :DD
YAYY for Liberi Fatali & One-Winged Angel! :DD
this is so so so friggin one of those moments that i think to myself why the hell am i doing in a logistics course and persuing what?!
when i think i should be lyk out there running around pursuing some fantastic epic 'personal legend' of mine. ><" ARGHH.
i shall now drop down back to reality and rot. :C nono, i should go and work hard on project Coup de Grace. that's the shipping game's name jonathan buddy's come up with. HOHO, it reminds me of the phrase 'coup d'etat'. ><" and jonna doesnt know what that phrase means, surprisingly.. HOHO. and i thought he was good with war and politics-ish stuffs. XD
look forward to seeing my pretty graphics~!! :p
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
: 12:46:00 AM :
GRAHH. i feel so EFFING TIREDD lately. :C and even when i napp more, i still feel tiredd. why? :C i have fascinating dreams when i sleep excessively. lyk during holidays. and i want a fascinating dream where the setting is in forest. :C
ahh, i'll blog in depth for port visit and birthdays tmw. lethargic now. :C
tagged by esh in facebook. :)
"Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words."
1. Beer: bitter & black.
2. Food: TREAT ME.
3. Relationships: unpredictable.
4. Your CRUSH: none.
5. Power Rangers: pink ranger & yellow ranger.
6. Life: walk towards the path that has light.
7. The President: none of my business.
8. Yummy: FOOD, bishies.
9. Cars: yellow porsche.
10. Movies: download online.
11. Halloween: pumpkins.
12. Sex: WTFFFF.
13. Religion: my own god.
14. Hate: everything.
15. Fear: loneliness.
16. Marriage: how do you stick together forever?
17. Blondes: bimbos?
18. Slippers: comfy
19. Shoes: do they have my size? :C
20. Asians: small eyes & korea/koreans seem to have/be the best looking males.
21. Pass time: conquering fantasy stories in my head.
22. One night stand: i dont dare.
23. My Cell Phone: ancient relics.. tracking devices & i dont really lyk them alot.
24. Smoke: STINKS.
25. Fantasy: out of the world EFFING EPIC.
26. College: poly? love my class and glad to be in this class.
27. High school life: expelled!
28. Pyjamas: i dont bother.
29. Stars: astronomy.
30. Center: middle.
31. Alcohol: drunk.
32. The word love: = unpredictable roller coaster.
33. Friends: not alot.
34. Money: as much as possible.
35. Heartache: get on with life. you wont die from it. T____T
36. Time: too little.
37. Divorce: OMG. what happened?!
38. Dogs: more cleaning up work.
39. Undies: random.
40. Parents: loggerheads.
41. Babies: boy! twins! grow up into bishies pleasee!
42. Ex: the past?
43. Song: i cant sing.
44. Color: likes it spelt as 'colour'. no favourite colour. but if forced to make a choice, i'll say red.
45. Weddings: shark's fin soup.
46. Pizza: lots of cheese! mushrooms! lotsa toppings!
47. Hangout: go EATT.
48. Rest: bath before collapsing on the bed.
49. Goals: write an EFFING EPIC fantasy novel, then get it transcribed to manga and anime. then movie! using CG animation! no actors pleasee. ><"
50. Inspiration: anime, manga, OSTs, my dreams, everything & everywhere.
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Saturday, June 13, 2009
: 3:49:00 PM :
OMG. ><" i didnt do work for the whole of yesterday! ><" was reading manga againn! :DD 07 Ghost ch49 translation & spoiling myself silly with Fullmetal Alchemist manga. X] somehow greed + lin = seems so damn cool. XD and hakuren faster faster reappear will you! :)) btw, addicted to the Valkyrie Chronicles OP - Asu e no Kizuna by Himeka. :DD
and someone bought durians home today! :DD but dunno who. think it's mom. and when i asked how come got durians one, she answered cause it's durian season now.. T_____T but they taste really good. :) ate quite abit, and i couldnt really finish my lunch. ><"
hmms, project work in esh's house was funn. :p and im sorry that i kinda threw a mini tantrum. bows* ><" oh yeahh, the card designs are lyk damnn pretty, hahas. pray that my house's scanner can work. ><" i'd lyk to do my digital edits if possible. @_@ oh and i learnt a secret about green tea. XD and esh's younger brother, elvin is cute. :) hahas.
and i try + do my best to devote the remaining days to GETTING WORK DONE. :DD now i'll have to chiong for PEL & card designs.. pouts* all these just feels lyk 3 weeks of e-learning. EEK. :C
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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
: 6:43:00 AM :
AHAHS. this is just so DAMNN funny. XD i think i JUST HAD TO POST. X]
" To jonna:
Eh. What sort of cardboard boxes? How many you want?
And, I DONT HAVE SWIMMING TRUNKS YOUR SIZE.
To ferly:
HEYYY! :DDD I think I have all those stuffs la. As in, I do. But its quite limited. So maybe you wanna bring?
Shun qing, if you have, can bring too! :D :D "
AHAHAS. XD compare the 'eh part' and the 'HEYYY! :DDD part'!! XDD OMG. hahas!
NO, dont ask me why there are SWIMMING TRUNKS inside. ><"
cause apparently buddy jonathan wanted to go swimming at esh's downstairs pool.. and he was
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Tuesday, June 09, 2009
: 10:26:00 PM :
ALOOS! XD
OMG. ive got so muchh things to talk about actually. cause there's always so many random ideas and thinkings floating around in my brain you know! XD ahh, go look at this facebook quiz? :p quite interesting. ^^ "What does your mind look like?" http://apps.facebook.com/what-does-yo-febicj/take?force=1&_fb_q=1
ohh, and and i took the which Final Fantasy character you are quiz too! ><" as prompted by buddy jonathan [who got SEPHIROTH
so what did i do for my 1st day of holiday? sleeeppp! eat! read pandora hearts ch19, caught up entirely with valkyrie chronicles [watched till ep8 & reviews of ep 9, 10]. ahahas, really lyk alicia! she is just so human. XD but but i lyk fauldio, welkin and ramal too! :))
oh yeahh! NOW! be prepared for a damnn longg post! :DD
AHAHAHS. my holidays have already started! :DD so actually! you can count it as im having 3 weeks of hols instead of the normal 2.. since my common test only took up monday of the common test week. :) but but still lotsa things to do! ><" FERLY DO YOUR WORK. stoopid silly CBN plastic wood
btw, the Project & Event Logistics google sketchup stuffs ive been rambling about a few posts ago! :p will be showcasing our group's stuffs! :DD but apparently i think we've gotta be more detailed.. okays, reminds me of stealing the mobile toilets from buddy jonathan. :) ohh, dont worry! it's perfectly legal to do so. :)) HOHO, teacher said so. ^^
our carnival's called AID Carnival! :) and the tagline for it is 'Aid. Indulge. Donate.' :)) HOHO, they were thought up by shuhui! ^^ tentage, staging, booths and fortune-telling tent were drawn and coloured by ME. :DD carousal drawn by xanier! NO she did not draw the horses..
btw, did i say before here, that i want to write a book?!? OMG, hell YESS. i wanna try writing something terribly awesome EPIC fantasy novel. something among the lines of Final Fantasy + 07 Ghost & bits of D.Gray Man + Harry Potter. ahahas. NO. dont laugh. :) i really wanna write. so until the day my book finally sees the light of the universe.. i shall press on and write and hope i dont dump the project halfway. ><" or write and re-write and rewrite againn too much. ><" ohh, and i somehow love to pick / create / source for names that even i cant pronounce? XD ahahs. btw, i lyk break's name. :DD as in Xerxes Break from pandora hearts. ^^
and the stuffyings to post on deviantart from IS art! :C no, i havent got my lazy self to go tidying them up. :C but i will! ><" and and really thank kews for the EPIC birthday celebration the guys in class gave me. X] and the sakae outing! :DD ahh, i'll talk talk and talk about that in the next post okays? :)
stay tuned! :DD and take care! :) and study hard people! ^^
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Saturday, June 06, 2009
: 8:30:00 PM :
ahh, i feel damn screwed for MM. sheesh. felt so damn annoyed everytime i step back into this home. zzzzzz. ferly im begging you to study harder! it's bad enough that you dont have so much others have. and that you arent so much what other ppl are. so at least make yourself win others in your studies.
forget those assholes and MOVE ON WITH LIFE!
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Wednesday, June 03, 2009
: 12:27:00 AM :
ahh, i just read shihui's blogpost! *phew* so
but today. it just suddenly felt lyk stoopid ppl were running amok. T_____T as well as rude persons. and ppl who just act lyk they dont care. W-T-H. but it's not lyk i didnt try. so it's so seriously whatever for now.
ahh, and obviously cause of ferly's lack of sleep the night before thanks to CBN PLASTIC WOOD. eeks. i am still lyk scribbling rubbish for it. but will re-do after MM test. gosh. so many things to do! oh and maybe cause starting from GPS lesson, i was fiddling with google sketchup compiling and furiously editing.. ><" that my temper got abit stressed up. @_@ but but seriously tiredd. :C i will crawl up early to do work tmw. MUST FINISH ALL ALL PEL WORK. and get BF ROLLING. i think i will flunk on friday. OMG. OMG. MM on monday! ><" i will not do anything funny this weekend. MM really must glue my butt to the chair and chain my leg to the chair's leg to study. and get enough sleep for monday's test!
then off for BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION! :DD gosh, me and peter's one! ahh, wonder what surprise *ahemsahems* awaits.. :p and then! chiong-ing MM game card designs. jonathan buddy was talking about it againn today.. ><" HOHO. but will try to do a good job in designing. :D and then! poster competition! must ask PEL teacher for details!! and there's still MT test after break. hmms, that's about it?! i doubt so.
but let's just stop here for today. :) JIAYOUS for COMMON TESTS PEOPLE! :p work hard! :]
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Monday, June 01, 2009
: 12:09:00 AM :
ahh, alot of birthdays coming upp! :DD
31 march - xiangyu! :)
berrie reliable person! :DD ahh, thanks for always clarifying things, stuffs and info for the class as well. ^^ you've been a great class rep for year 1! :]
1st june - jiawei! :)
ahahs, he was shocked that i still remembered! XD of course i do, yupps! so fare few little ppl having birthdays on early june! :p he was a great primary 5 & 6 deskmate! :DD
7th june - peter! :)
HOHO. peter. peter. PETERR. 2 decades OLD BOY. and growing OLDER everyday. [?!] ahahs. thanks for being nice and caring at random times! X]
ahh! Final Fantasy Versus XIII trailers! :DD
1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b6At_bb1PNU&feature=channel&fmt=18
2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGyVZRHZ2ow&fmt=22
3) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sga_LB0Yro&hd=1
i swear it is made of EPIC. ^^ NOCTIS! :DD
p.s. : the 2nd & 3rd ones, PLEASE VIEW FULLSCREEN! ^^ cause it still looks damn good when blasted bigg! XD
and zalias made my day! :DD OMG. so sweet! :) thanks for the jiayous. ^^ i'll work hard! :p
SHUNQING! :D you! cheer up dear lady! :) HUGS*
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and and i have been catching up on manga! abit! ><" i spent almost the entire saturday! ><" OMG. homework is so screwed. ><" read vk! pandora hearts! 07 ghost! and MORE 07 ghost! :DD and there's a neww forum for 07 ghost! ^^ and i downloaded an entire stack of old 07 ghost goodies! :p ahh, which includes another drama cd! with mikhail! and mikage! :DD and and and to be really damn frank.. ><" OMG. i dont really get pandora hearts!! @_@ and there was this icon post that caught my eye about this otome game! Danzai no Maria ~The Exorcism of Maria~! :) ahh, the images look really pretty good! then i went to search for it and downloaded another stack of nice pictures. :p but the game trailer looks great and lotsa action for an otome game! O_O but ppl who'd played the game said that practically every pairing had a sadd ending! :C ouch. but still looks good with lotsa action. :)) watch the trailer? :p http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HD0y20vc78Y&fmt=18
HOHO, the joker's voice sounds alot lyk senri shiki from vk! :DD NICEE! to me, of course. hahas. :) and so is the SONG! Ookami to Kohitsuji no Zange by Ishii Makoto! find for me? :p i'll do that during hols!
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-- HESITATING MEANS DEATH - the GazettE [Italian translation - angeldevil87@LJ]
[English translation - distressedcoma@LJ]
You, who know this pain, will soon plant the seeds here once again
You hope the flowers that changed their colours will bloom someday
You, who know this pain, could you pour water on them without trembling
The colourful flowers you have never seen are calling out for you again